Tomorrow...Today???

What Day Is It?
I know it is (was) Friday. I swear, if I don't wear a watch that has a day/date function on it, I'm lost! For me it is somewhere between Friday and Saturday; meaning that it's still Friday night to me and it will be Saturday whenever I wake up. I've lived by this rule for as long as I can remember. The new day starts after going to sleep and waking up. Period.

Lots Going On!!!
Wow! what a busy day tomorrow! Roomies are getting married at 2pm, the reception is at 5pm, AND (yes, there's more...) I have to be at the gig to set up around 8pm. Suffice it to say, but I am really curious just how smoothly things are going to run. I expect a few snags. But there's more to it than that.

Weddings and Other Social Gatherings...
I'll be honest - for one, I'm not too crazy about weddings, funerals, and the like. I always feel very uncomfortable. I am totally out of my element attempting to make small talk with people. If it doesn't concern a passion of mine, I'm pretty much in the dark as far as what to discuss. Many people find that I am a little too intense to talk to sometimes. My views appear to be somewhat radical and even militant when it comes to politics and such.

People...
I also dread running into people that I don't care to see - ex girlfriends, people I don't get along with, etc. If I see someone I don't like, chances are pretty good that I'm going to try to avoid them, or there could be some problems. I know that if they provoked me, there certainly would be a confrontation, that would almost escalate into a fight or brawl. It's happened before on more than one occasion. This is the very reason I was such a jerk at my sister's wedding. I still feel awful for the way I behaved, and what I put everyone else through. I do have some anger issues that remain in my life - however, I am working on them constantly. I'll delve into those later...

Stop!
I did it again - I got my mind thinking of possible "confrontations" and as a result, I got excited about it (and not in a good way!) Odds are in favor of nothing happening, so I guess I get all revved-up for nothing. My mind just conjures up these scenarios, and I play them through my head, literally "pre-living" them, thinking about every possible angle, just so that I can be "ready." It's basically getting psyched-up for absolutely nothing. *sigh*

Assurance
Somehow, it will be all right. The wedding will be fine, and the reception will go over well. Of course, I won't drink a drop, and I'll be out of there by 7pm - that way I have plenty of time to get to the gig and help with the set up. I'm going to try to spread the word, and get the wedding party to come out and party at the gig also. Is that selfish to do that, or is it okay? I'm still debating on the ethics of that.

And for those who've commented on my last post - thank you very much. I will be in contact with you via email. I have not forgotten you at all. I will take the time to correspond with you and listen to what you have to say - any ideas, suggestions, or criticisms that you may have. For now, it's off to bed for a few hours, so that I can function as a human tomorrow! WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

Some People
by The Fixx

Some people make it
Some people try
Some people break it
Some people cry
Some people lose it
Some people find
Some people lead us
And some are behind


It's a slow slow break up
That's what we find
It's a so so make up
Make up your mind
It's a slow slow break up
That's what we find
It's a so so make up
Make up your mind

What is the point of being amused
I see the people standing abused
They keep their faces buried in hands
They keep their plates clean
But underneath...

Some people drink gin
Some people dry
Some people drive cars
And some people fly
Some people take trains
Some people walk
Some people hold it
And some people talk

It's a slow slow break up
That's what we find
It's a so so make up
Make up your mind

What is the point of being amused
I see the people standing abused
They keep their faces buried in hands
They keep their plates clean
But underneath...

They like to fly with the jetsetters
They want to be with the go-getters
And then the moment comes around
Once again we'll find
He's taking pills and drink just
To find his peace of mind

Some people do it
Some people won't
Some people do da
Some people don't
Some people Liepzig
Some people Prague
Some people lucid
And some people vague

It's a no go faker
That's what we find
It's a no no taker
What's on your mind
It's a no go faker
That's what we find
It's a no no taker
What's on your mind

What is the point of being amused
I see the people standing abused
They keep their faces buried in hands
They keep their plates clean
But underneath...